Week one status update:

This is harder then I thought it would be. I have definitely had ups and downs this week. I felt pretty lazy over the weekend not doing much in the way of physical activity eating poorly, not getting together with people and not attending church on Sunday. But during the week I stepped up my game and felt better. I biked to and from work (I even invested in a new fancy bike for myself) I opted to look into some challenging physical activities to push myself I enjoyed engaging with friends and co-workers and I have been praying consistently. So definitely a roller coaster but it’s a slow change not one I’m sure I can say I’ve noticed anything significant as of yet.

A goal allows me an incremental way to mark my progress and gives me something to strive towards. However with this being said I am not a highly goal driven, goal oriented person. So I need to come up with a goal that is fluid and adapts to my lifestyle and how I interpret success. So all of my goals become fluid, not fixated and are made up of things I can feel and sense but do not need to meticulously track.

Physical Goal

My physical goal is to feel and look better. Achieving this with a fluid goal can be tricky but I have a strategy…

I plan to take weekly photos of myself as a comparison of where my body is at. I also plan to maintain an active and healthy lifestyle that will allow my body to feel good and function at a higher level. This means higher metabolism, more energy, better sleep and improved performance within the activities I perform.

Emotional Goal

To be more up beat and positive

This one is a little harder to monitor due to the fact that I am your classic hormonal female so for this one I will be relying on others. The way I treat and respond around others is often directly related to my current mood and attitude. The more fun and more pleasant I am the better my emotional state is. The more I want to get out and do things and see people the better I am feeling. So I plan to gauge my success with this goal based on the amount of time I want to spend out and about and my stress level/attitude while I’m interacting in a social environment.

Spiritual Goal

To listen to what God is saying and respond.

To me this goal can not be fluid. To truly listen and respond to God is not an optional thing that I can judge based on how often I hear him or how often I want to hear him. It’s a sense of awareness for his promptings. I plan to try and monitor and gauge this by  writing about it. This allows me a recollection through my days and weeks for how well I’m maintaining an open door policy between myself and God.



Making a Goal

First blog post

I’m a 25 year old female and I have struggled all my life with body image. Of course like most women I have always found flaws in myself from my weight to my complexion, my height and even the sound of my own voice. I have not been alone in my journey and have had many people over the years encourage and support me always telling me how beautiful I was and that I was a child of God and fearfully and wonderfully made. These words of encouragement along with my own self reflection would help for a time but then a trigger would happen in my life and I’d be right back down to the bottom of the self loathing pit.

I decided to start this blog as a tool both for myself and maybe for others. My goal to see changes  both physically but also emotionally and spiritually. Having written and photo documentation to help prod me along and see things that I may otherwise have not seen in myself.


I think above all this has always been a major struggle in my life which has then brought me down on a spiritual and mental level. I have never been the thin pretty girl. I distinctly remember always comparing myself to friends and family members and loathing how different I was. A truly low point for me was at a Christian camp where all people are supposed to be loved and respected. With a group of teens however this is not always the case. It was obstacle challenge day and we were randomly divided into groups of both guys and girls to try and perform different challenges around camp. The one challenge was to get six people from one end of the field to the other and only ever having four points of contact on the ground. I can still hear the comment that was made and it makes me cringe “lets not use her she’s too butch”. I knew I wasn’t the skinny small girl but to be called butch and  by a guy hurt more than I can say. I now look back at pictures and that’s who I see the butch girl. The girl who gains muscle instead of becoming lean, who gains weight with even the slightest deviation from my workout routine the girl who will never be skinny. So what do I do about it, I work out. I push myself to my limit, if this is who I am then I am going to try and embrace it head on. Is it easy no, do I fall down sometimes yes. I am definitely no where near perfect or where I want to be. I still look at pictures of myself and cringe but I’m getting there one day at a time and each picture looks a little nicer than the last.


Being a “butch” girl shook an adolescent girl like me emotionally and created quite the internal turmoil. Since that day that’s how I’ve viewed myself. It occurred to me that if I’m the butch girl I should go all out and be the butch girl. A good theory, a version of self acceptance, that unfortunately back fired. Being the butch girl to me meant being strong, abrasive and aggressive. I wanted to beat everyone at everything. I lost friends and managed to disconnect myself from family during this time. Hanging out alone became routine and searching for affirmation through conflict became second nature. This personality trait although much improved sticks with me even today. I am highly competitive I voice my opinions strongly and take offense quickly.  It is emotionally strenuous as I compete with other women over looks, popularity and success. Each improvement in my life boosts my esteem only to crash at the next photo or post that someone makes reminding me how inadequate I am and that I will never look like that, talk like that, act like that or be as successful as that. So how do you fight what you feel so you don’t implode? You create a routine to keep yourself from being left alone with your thoughts for too long. I make sure I’m going from the time I wake up to the time I fall asleep. I have created a routine that keeps my brain engaged it is also a very physical routine which releases endorphin’s to help me regulate my mood. Am I perfect at controlling my thoughts and emotions far from it. I struggle daily to keep emotions in check and not fall off the wagon. Moments of calm are often moments for me where a storm brews inside and negative thoughts encroach. All I can do is continue my routine and giving myself positive affirmation. To those I’ve offended or hurt with my crazy mood swings, abrasive attitude and black and white opinions. I hope to make amends and work harder at being a friendly loving person that people are not scared or intimidated to be around.


The most important thing to me is spiritual growth. I was born and raised in a Christian home and have always believed that God is my Savior and that Jesus died for my sins. When the emotional roller-coaster of adolescents hit I began to fall away from what I have always believed. How could there be so much hate in the world. If God loved me why did I feel this way. I started relying on the world to help fix my problems instead of relying on God. I have had moments of transformation where God has re shown himself to me and pulled me out of my sinfulness but self worth is a powerful and easy target for the devil. I pray daily with husband (my support and rock) and I keep a journal so I can keep records of how God truly is moving in my life and the lives of those around me. I hope others will continue to pray and support me as I feel I am being pulled down into another battle with Satan. The battle of self worth constantly raging and making me believe things that I know deep down are not true about myself. God is good and wants what’s best and perfect for me he know me inside and out and knows every day ahead for me I need to continue to push and rely on him and be thankful for who I am and what he has given me.


Phillipians 4:4-9

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God,which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Words Will Never Hurt Me

There’s that old adage, “sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.” A well known saying but as of late I’m not sure I believe that it’s true. Yes sticks and stones may break bones but words can hurt. Now the deeper meaning to that phrase is that the person saying them feels unthreatened and unaffected by the harsh words of another person. But what just what if we didn’t need to use the phrase at all? What if everyone worked together to be kind and only speak words of encouragement. A task far easier said than done. And very applicable for me in all aspects of my life.

This phrase and thought came to me a couple of weeks back as I experienced a number of circumstances where someone’s words or actions, although unintentionally, upset someone around them. It then made me assess myself and the way I talk and act. Is it possible that I am hurting other with my words and actions even if unintentionally. Is it possible that I am letting other people’s words and actions affect me negatively. This is what I discovered:


I consider myself to be physically fit. Am I at my ideal or my goal no but I’m working and training to get there. I realized with reflection though that I let how others have treated me or talk to me drive my effort level. When one of the guys calls out to another guy and says “you shoot like a girl” when playing basketball, or I watch a girl lap me in the pool I have let it take me beyond just a place of motivation to a place of anger, frustration and dissatisfaction with myself and my body. It was never either persons intention to put me down or make me feel bad yet I am left feeling down about myself all the same. The same is true of my actions, if I’m a bad sport or can’t laugh at my short comings, if I over exert myself and brag about how good I’m doing I may be unintentionally be hurting those around me. So I’ve decided this week to ask for humbleness.

Luke 14:10-11

“But when you are invited, take the lowest place, so that when your host comes he will say to you,friend move up to a better place, then you will be honored in the presence of all the other guests. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled and those who humble themselves will be exalted”


Emotionally I am at a good place I feel the people I am surrounded by love me and I know they have no intention to hurt me or put me down. I worry however that I may be hurting them by the words that I say. I have often been told that I am very blunt and very black and white. Which at times is a great quality to have. It can however lead me to say things at times that are insensitive. My prayer moving forward is that my words will be guided, that I will know when to talk and when to be silent, when to make a statement and when to listen

Psalm 119:105

“Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light on my path.”


This is probably where I struggle most. Coming back to my black and whiteness this is the subject where I am quickest to take offence and probably unknowingly offending others. The unfortunate part here is that my judgements and criticisms are based upon thoughts and opinions of others around me and not my own determinations and knowledge. So my need in this area is for knowledge for a better, firmer grasp of what I believe and why I believe it so that when spiritual warfare does arise (and it will) I will be ready.

Ephesians 6:11-17

“Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.”

I guess in conclusion what I am trying and wanting to say is that we are all human. We all make mistakes no body is perfect. And sometimes things people say or do around us may be hurtful but it’s how we take those words and that hurt and what we do with them that determines our happiness and our impact on others.

Work Out Hangover

Today I am experiencing a workout hangover. Apparently this is not as common as I thought because I tried googling it and it gave me advice for workouts you can do to cure an actual hangover, but that is not my ailment. The best way I can describe it though is similar to an alcohol hangover where I woke up feeling groggy, tired, headachy and extremely dehydrated almost to the point of nausea. So I asked myself why do I think this is and what can I do to combat it.

This is a little different from my topics as of late but I think it still is relevant and important to talk about and the cures I have for my workout hangover can totally be applied to a number of other areas of life including an emotional or spiritual hangover.

Let me start by explaining what I believe to be the reason for my workout hangover. I have gone from a routinely active lifestyle to a more intensive activity level over a very short period. As my body adapts to this new workout routine. I did expect to be a little sore and tired following the increased activity level. The problem I believe comes from the frequency with which I am working out. I went from a two day workout routine to a 3-4 day workout routine. With no breaks each day is in succession to the other and I am working out 1-2 hours each time. The schedule although not ideal for rest and muscle repair is what I have to work with and so I now have to develop a strategy to keep myself from getting burnt out.


Step 1: Hydrate

This is an important step for any athlete in any situation with any sort of work out routine. Mild dehydration can cause a lot of the symptoms I have experienced recently including headache, muscle cramps, dry mouth and increased tiredness. Water is essential for the body to function property. Leave it to long and mild dehydration can become sever and life threatening.

So what can I do in future to keep myself from being dehydrated. I believe the answer for me is to plan ahead. Drinking plenty of fluids throughout the day before my workouts, then also having a bottle of water with me and ready to go when I do go exercise. Followed up by a reminder (perhaps a sticky note) prompting me to have more water post workout to refuel myself.

Lets apply this to emotional needs. Everyone has different social and emotional needs that need to be refueled and re-hydrated. For some that may look like, taking a break from chores or an activity and getting together with a friend for coffee or even just a phone call. For others it may look like taking time for yourself in a quiet room with a good book or to relax and journal. Whatever it takes to recharge yourself emotionally should be made a priority. Planning ahead is a great tool for this. For extroverts this may mean making plans with people ahead of time to ensure you get adequate time around friends and family. For introverts it may mean planning time for yourself  by taking out a good book or making a schedule to ensure you’re not over booked.

Spiritually we can be dehydrated when we are not filled with the Holy spirit. The bible says that God is the living water and we must come to him when we are thirsty.

John 7:37-39

37 On the last day, the climax of the festival, Jesus stood and shouted to the crowds, “Anyone who is thirsty may come to me! 38 Anyone who believes in me may come and drink! For the Scriptures declare, ‘Rivers of living water will flow from his heart.’” 39 (When he said “living water,” he was speaking of the Spirit, who would be given to everyone believing in him. But the Spirit had not yet been given,[f] because Jesus had not yet entered into his glory.)


Step 2: Rest

Rest is just  as good as activity. Proper rest allows the body to recharge, reset and prepare for the next activity and day. This has the same application for both physical and mental well being. Proper sleep is crucial. making sure you have adequate time to sleep without interruption. Functioning  on alack of sleep can cause negative side effects to the body including impaired performance, mood swings, difficulty concentrating, aches and pains.


It is also important in a spiritual sense. Rest in the form of sleep yes, but also resting in the peace of our heavenly father.  Psalms 4:8 states just that “In peace I will lie down and sleep,for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety.”  The other amazing verse comes from Isaiah and it talks about our Heavenly Father and how he does not grow weary and need rest that he will take our burdens and weight. What an Amazing gift. Just thinking about that kind of love and support lessens that burdens and weariness I feel in my daily life.

Isaiah 40:28-41

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary,
 and his understanding no one can fathom. 29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. 30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31 but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.


Step 3: Nutrition

It is becoming increasingly more difficult to eat well in our day and age. Partially due to laziness yes, but also due to the way things are manufactured and the products that are made more readily available. I have found loading up on junk food or sugar like foods after a work out sustains me for a time but often leaves me hungry shortly after and lethargic. My boy is not getting the vitamins and nutrition it needs. On the other end of the spectrum we need to watch for fads and diets. Yo-yoing because a diet worked but you can’t maintain that lifestyle day to day is no good either. Or cutting out certain foods so your not getting proper fats protein and nourishment are not the answer. It’s about balance and everything in moderation. Which is why this month my husband and I have created our own little challenge we are calling “Whole Food February”. Our goal in this is to number one not eat out. less sodium and less fats that and with the convenience of eating out often leads to unhealthy dinner choices. We are also choosing at home to eat as few processed foods as possible to avoid all the preservatives and hormones that are in our food now a days. This is a goal we know is probably not sustainable for us but we are hoping makes us more conscious of how we do eat so that in the future we will continue to make healthier cleaner food choices.

For emotions we also need to watch our nutrition and what we eat.Lacking the right nutrients and vitamins can leave you tired, worn out, and irritated. We have also been filling our systems with hormones and bi-products that are messing with the bodies normal chemical make up causing more hormonal imbalances and emotional distress, which unfortunately can lead to a vicious cycle of emotional eating then getting more emotional and eating more. All of which are not good for the over all health and well being.

Nutrition like rest can also be applied to what we feed our Soul. spiritually speaking we should regularly be feeding ourselves from the word of God. Involving ourselves in what God has to say in and through the bible. We also need to look at what the bible says about our physical well being when it comes to food and nutrition. Matthew 6:25-34 says “Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. 29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. 30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31 but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” and 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 “19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.”


I hope these steps help guide you through your own journey as I am hoping they will help guide me through mine. And with any luck there will be far fewer work out, emotional and spiritual hangovers in my future.

Attention to Attitude

I’d like to shift my attention this week to a topic that differs from the usual. Although still very applicable to improving myself I started thinking today about my attitude and how I treat others and the world as a whole around me. I have been diving into politics a bit this week as I try to understand, support and weigh in on political issues of the day. I realized during the process that perhaps my attitude has been misguided. I was so focused on defending Trump and his Presidency and knocking down Trudeau that I really did miss the bigger picture. It was right around this aha moment that I received and encouraging verse from my mom pertaining to this exact topic.

Proverbs 21:1-2

In the Lord’s had the king’s heart is a stream of water that he channels towards all who please him. A person may think their own ways are right but the Lord weighs the heart.

This verse so adequately captures what my attitude regarding this matter should be. Do I have to agree with everything our leaders are doing and saying, no I don’t. I do however have to respect their authority in their respective positions and pray and trust that God will guide them. I have my opinions and views of what is right and how I think the leaders should and are acting but I had never considered what God may want. So with that I am shifting my focus to a better, more positive attitude that will diligently pray and support those in authority over me, both in government but also in day to day living like my colleagues, elders, friends and family.

I pray God will give me patience and perspective as I continue to learn and grow on my faith journey.

Storing Up Treasures

Matthew 6:19 -21

19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.


What a great verse. It relates to so much of what we do in this life and the things we put importance on. This same chapter later goes on to talk about not worrying and that if God cares for a sparrow why would he also not care for you. Both pieces of this chapter have really stuck with me these past weeks as I go about the new year stressing , worrying and putting value back on worldly things. This Chapter is a great reminder to refocus my thoughts and my energies on God. If I am actively involved in my community, sports and work, but I am not showing God’s love or word I am just a sounding gong, a noise maker that is a part of society but not creating treasure. This all seems very counter cultural mostly because it is, but isn’t that the point. God never said that life was going to be easy in fact he promised quite the opposite.

John 16:33

33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

God has already taken care of things, of our sin of the corruption. Judgement is coming. It is our job in the meantime to do our best to live for him. Today that often means living counter culturally. It is a hard and frowned upon concept by the world. But I for one am up or the challenge.

My plans to live counter culturally although not extravagant will be hard and I know I will fail and fall. I pray that I will be given the strength to endure and that my example may be the seed or the influence that someone I encounter needs to start them on a journey that eventually leads to God and his wonderful Grace and mercy.


Here are some tangible things I am trying that you may want to consider for your daily life as well.

  1. No more gossip – so often when we are in a group of friends or in  our work place it almost feels natural to complain or vent to those around us about those people that are currently not present. But this can be very damaging to relationships and even if said not to hurt the person but simply to vent can spread like wild fire and become a story you never intended to tell one of which can hurt the person you were discussing. So I try to avoid this when at all possible and instead of letting it become a story or a rumor that spreads I have taken to a) either shutting down the conversations, or b) taking my issues to places of authority where they can no longer be misconstrued into rumors but instead be dealt with on a professional level.
  2. Dressing modestly. taking no regard for what society deems pretty or appropriate and wearing and presenting myself in a way that is modest
  3. watching my language. Everyone has those urges to say the odd bad word now and again when they are telling a joke, or they are mad or hurt but I choose to speak in a kind manner. this of course like all the things I am changing is hard and I do slip up on occasion but with God’s help I will continue to work and improve.

My hope in all of this is that people will see there is something different, something better about me and wonder what it is that makes me who and the way I am. This will then hopefully open the doors ( if I am brave enough) to begin a conversation about God and my faith.

Next week; with time to research I intend to try and tackle some of the controversy surrounding the political views of  our society. Please pray for me as I venture into this controversial topic that I would have the words and wisdom to portray my thoughts and feelings in a kind and non-controversial manner.

Reason for the Season

Luke 2:1-20

The Birth of Jesus

In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. (This was the first census that took place while[a] Quirinius was governor of Syria.) And everyone went to their own town to register.

So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no guest room available for them.

And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10 But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. 11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. 12 This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”

13 Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,

14 “Glory to God in the highest heaven,
    and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.”

15 When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.”

16 So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. 17 When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, 18 and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. 19 But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. 20 The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.

What a wonderful story. and one we more than likely have all heard or been told at one point or another. But there is a second part to this story that may not be as “seasonal” but is equally as important.

Luke 23:26-49

The Crucifixion of Jesus

26 As the soldiers led him away, they seized Simon from Cyrene, who was on his way in from the country, and put the cross on him and made him carry it behind Jesus. 27 A large number of people followed him, including women who mourned and wailed for him. 28 Jesus turned and said to them, “Daughters of Jerusalem, do not weep for me; weep for yourselves and for your children. 29 For the time will come when you will say, ‘Blessed are the childless women, the wombs that never bore and the breasts that never nursed!’ 30 Then “‘they will say to the mountains, “Fall on us!” and to the hills, “Cover us!”’[b31 For if people do these things when the tree is green, what will happen when it is dry?”

32 Two other men, both criminals, were also led out with him to be executed. 33 When they came to the place called the Skull, they crucified him there, along with the criminals—one on his right, the other on his left. 34 Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”[c] And they divided up his clothes by casting lots. 

35 The people stood watching, and the rulers even sneered at him. They said, “He saved others; let him save himself if he is God’s Messiah, the Chosen One.” 36 The soldiers also came up and mocked him. They offered him wine vinegar 37 and said, “If you are the king of the Jews, save yourself.” 38 There was a written notice above him, which read: this is the king of the Jews. 39 One of the criminals who hung there hurled insults at him: “Aren’t you the Messiah? Save yourself and us!” 40 But the other criminal rebuked him. “Don’t you fear God,” he said, “since you are under the same sentence? 41 We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve. But this man has done nothing wrong.” 42 Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.[d]” 43 Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.”

The Death of Jesus

44 It was now about noon, and darkness came over the whole land until three in the afternoon, 45 for the sun stopped shining. And the curtain of the temple was torn in two. 46 Jesus called out with a loud voice, “Father, into your hands I commit my spirit.”[e] When he had said this, he breathed his last.

47 The centurion, seeing what had happened, praised God and said, “Surely this was a righteous man.” 48 When all the people who had gathered to witness this sight saw what took place, they beat their breasts and went away. 49 But all those who knew him, including the women who had followed him from Galilee, stood at a distance, watching these things. 

For more background on this magnificent story I would encourage you to read through the entire chapter of Luke.

This passage may seem strange to reference this time of year as it is sad and harsh but it then comes with good news in the next chapter.

Luke 24:1-12

Jesus Has Risen

24 On the first day of the week, very early in the morning, the women took the spices they had prepared and went to the tomb. They found the stone rolled away from the tomb, but when they entered, they did not find the body of the Lord Jesus. While they were wondering about this, suddenly two men in clothes that gleamed like lightning stood beside them. In their fright the women bowed down with their faces to the ground, but the men said to them, “Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here; he has risen! Remember how he told you, while he was still with you in Galilee: ‘The Son of Man must be delivered over to the hands of sinners, be crucified and on the third day be raised again.’ ” Then they remembered his words.

When they came back from the tomb, they told all these things to the Eleven and to all the others. 10 It was Mary Magdalene, Joanna, Mary the mother of James, and the others with them who told this to the apostles. 11 But they did not believe the women, because their words seemed to them like nonsense. 12 Peter, however, got up and ran to the tomb. Bending over, he saw the strips of linen lying by themselves, and he went away, wondering to himself what had happened.

The second and third portions of scripture I have referenced here refer to what everyone knows as the Easter story. I reference these because of something I heard/learned recently from my pastor that I thought was profound and important to share with all of you.

Christmas is a wonderful magical time of year where we get to celebrate the birth of our Savior. But without the Cross His birth is meaningless. To have a Savior that came and dwelt among the people is one thing and a huge sacrifice but that in no way completes what we as Christians believe in terms of the forgiveness of sins and the ability to be forgiven by grace. if Jesus had simply been born lived a sinless life and was then taken back to heaven by the Father we would still be required to repent from our sins by making sacrifices. So without the Cross the His birth is meaningless

Without His birth the Cross is powerless. A man named Jesus did live and walk the earth historians have proved this. But if all he was is a good man or prophet then his death on the cross is powerless and cannot take the load of the sins of the world. Jesus needed to be born, fully man and fully God. So without His birth the Cross is powerless

The Cross and His birth go hand in hand. One is not enough without the other. Both must be true for Jesus to have been the Savior. God must have sent his son Jesus in human form, fully human and fully God to this earth, he must have lived a sinless and dies a sinners death on the Cross, then be raised from the dead after three days to conquer the death once and for all.

This is the reason for the season it’s not all wrapped up with nice bows and it’s not about the carols. It’s about a Savior born humbly for the sins of the world. I will celebrate gladly with friends and family this holiday season with wrapped presents, bows, lights and carols but I will always remember the reason for the season

Without the Cross His Birth is Meaningless, Without His Birth the Cross is Powerless

Year in Review

As we head into the holiday season, it is a time to reflect on the year past. Time to reflect on all that has happened, both good and bad and makes plans, goals and dreams for the future. I’m not particularly big on resolutions although I do think they have their place . But instead prefer to makes plans. tangible lifestyle changes to perhaps accomplish what would be considered a goal or resolution. i would like to now share these with you.


When I started this blog it was about fitness and my journey encouraging others to learn and grow ass I have but over recent months it has become something more and something I am proud of. The focus originally went physical well being, emotional well being spiritual well being. I pause d to reflect recently not only how my blog posts of chanegd but also how I’ve changed, and although I think physical and emotional well being are critical to our over all well being and confidence I now put it’s importance significantly behind the importance of spiritual well being. So next step. Lets re vamp this blog. I want to give tangible tips on how to improve every aspect of our lives but I want God to be the center and most important part of it all.



Previously I have been adamant that I should go to church and I should pray regularly which are great practices. I want to improve upon these things and take it one step further. My plan is to integrate my faith and prayers into my every day. My goal in this is to talk to God hourly. It will take a fair amount of discipline to implement but I feel it will improve my lifestyle and create a calmer more relaxed happy atmosphere for myself. To form this habit I will be leaving and setting reminders for myself throughout the day to stop and pray. Even if just for a few seconds. That constant refocus on God will not only help me to start listening for and hearing his voice and his will in my life but will also take me out of routine and cause me to look at every event every encounter as an opportunity to use him to help others and to use the gifts he has blessed me with to influence others.

Philipians 4: 6-9

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you.

I have always had this as my  favourite verse but now it will apply more than ever as I take each opportunity I can to thank God, release my worries and stresses to him and listen for his help and guidance. I pray that my obedience will result in a direct impact on the kingdom and that I might be able to touch even just one life around me.


I also know that this means challenges and adversity that I may tested or attacked spiritually. I ask that you who read this will pray for me for strength and help as I may make this lifestyle change.



Managing emotions especially as a hormonal female can be crazy difficult. For me this year it’s going to be about controlling and engaging the negative emotions in a way that’s positive and taking those positive emotions to a new level by being more open and engaging with those around me. I want to live a good life. Will I be perfect, no. But with Gods help I can make it through. My goal is to take my negative energy and channel it towards something good to allow myself to remain positive even through a hard situation. In my personal life I enjoy being physically fit so my negative emotions can be let out through kick boxing. My negative emotions at work may be harder to manage so my goal is to release those in my quiet times. not by venting and gossiping with other staff but by praying.

Philipians 4:10-14

10 How I praise the Lord that you are concerned about me again. I know you have always been concerned for me, but you didn’t have the chance to help me. 11 Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. 12 I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. 13 For I can do everything through Christ,[d] who gives me strength. 14 Even so, you have done well to share with me in my present difficulty.

Again from Philippians is a verse that I draw strength on. Specifically verse 13. “For I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength.” What a powerful and wonderful promise. No matter what I can do it because God will give me the strength. He will never give me more than I can handle. And although I may stumble or fall or although the road may be bumpy with this help I will make it through.



The last year has been a blast as I improve my skills and my health all in one fell swoop with a number of new hobbies I have acquired. I feel these skills can be put to good use if done  in a kind sportsman like manner with God as the center getting all the glory. I wish to keep my body his temple healthy and fit to the best of my abilities. I also would like to be a great sport and a great competitor no matter what I try. My goal this year is to push my limits. I wish to compete in an entry level triathlon and possibly run a half marathon. If their is time I would also like to compete in the spartan races as they pass through town. On top of all that I will strive to improve my basketball skills. continue my bike riding both to and from work but also long distance and lastly keep up with kick boxing as an emotional and physical release. All of these activities can bring glory to God as I honor him with my attitude my gifts and my talents.


Matthew 25:14-30

Parable of the Three Servants

14 “Again, the Kingdom of Heaven can be illustrated by the story of a man going on a long trip. He called together his servants and entrusted his money to them while he was gone. 15 He gave five bags of silver[a] to one, two bags of silver to another, and one bag of silver to the last—dividing it in proportion to their abilities. He then left on his trip.

16 “The servant who received the five bags of silver began to invest the money and earned five more. 17 The servant with two bags of silver also went to work and earned two more. 18 But the servant who received the one bag of silver dug a hole in the ground and hid the master’s money.

19 “After a long time their master returned from his trip and called them to give an account of how they had used his money. 20 The servant to whom he had entrusted the five bags of silver came forward with five more and said, ‘Master, you gave me five bags of silver to invest, and I have earned five more.’

21 “The master was full of praise. ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together![b]

22 “The servant who had received the two bags of silver came forward and said, ‘Master, you gave me two bags of silver to invest, and I have earned two more.’

23 “The master said, ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!’

24 “Then the servant with the one bag of silver came and said, ‘Master, I knew you were a harsh man, harvesting crops you didn’t plant and gathering crops you didn’t cultivate. 25 I was afraid I would lose your money, so I hid it in the earth. Look, here is your money back.’

26 “But the master replied, ‘You wicked and lazy servant! If you knew I harvested crops I didn’t plant and gathered crops I didn’t cultivate,27 why didn’t you deposit my money in the bank? At least I could have gotten some interest on it.’

28 “Then he ordered, ‘Take the money from this servant, and give it to the one with the ten bags of silver. 29 To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance. But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away. 30 Now throw this useless servant into outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’

Although to some this parable can seem harsh it is to show that everything we are given no matter how big or small are gifts from God and can be used in their own way to bring him glory. I wish to do the same with my talents. Will I be the best, not by a long shot. But I will use the gifts and talents he has blessed me with to bring him honour.

So what will your new year. What plans will you make and what goals will you set to achieve these plans. For me these are more than just a passing whim these plans have been prayerfully considered and will be come a lifestyle routine. Their is no end goal because I will never be done serving and honoring my God with my words and actions

Christmas Must Be Something More

Have you heard that Taylor Swift Christmas Song? It was released in 2007. At the end of this post I’ve included the lyrics for those who have not heard it. It basically talks about what Christmas would be without all the superficial things we humans have brought to this day. I think it’s a great reminder… not that their is anything wrong with traditions and decorations and enjoying the holiday season, as long as we remember what and who were celebrating.

I’ve been thinking about that a lot this season as I  decorate my house, shop for everyone and get life together for the holiday season. Am I too being superficial in what should be a day to celebrate the birth of the Saviour of the World. So I thought I’d take some time to reflect on what Christmas means to me and I discovered something. Yes I enjoy and embrace the superficiality that is Christmas but I think with the right heart and attitude behind it that this too can be a demonstration of God and his love for us

Here’s what it means for me. Christmas is first and foremost an opportunity to celebrate and spread the news about Jesus Christ. His birth, death and resurrection and the amazing gift we have been given. Secondly it’s about love and giving freely of what we have to a world in need. I am in awe how the small things around me suddenly that I take for granted all year long suddenly come into perspective on these days.



What if ribbons and bows didn’t mean a thing
Would the song still survive without five golden rings
Would you still wanna kiss without mistletoe
What would happen if God never let it snow
What would happen if Christmas carols told a lie
Tell me what would you find

You’d see that today holds something special
Something holy, not superficial
So here’s to the birthday boy who saved our lives
It’s something we all try to ignore
And put a wreath up on your door
So here’s something you should know that is for sure
Christmas must be something more

What if angels did not pay attention to
All the things that we wished they would always do
What if happiness came in a cardboard box
Then I think there is something we all forgot
What would happen if presents all went away
Tell me what would you find

We get so caught up in all of it
Business and relationships
Hundred mile an hour lives
And it’s this time of year
And everybody’s here
It seems the last thing on your mind

John 3:16 – 21

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18 Whoever believes in him is not condemned,but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. 19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. 20 Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. 21 But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God

The longest day

Have you ever had an exceptionally long day. One day that through the week off balance, a day that made Monday feel like Wednesday or Friday feel like Sunday. That was my day today. It was exceptionally long. Today was Kevin’s birthday. His 31st a day I pray he will remember and enjoy for years to come because I love him so.

Today was a hard day mostly because it was so long. Up early get ready for work, work hard till 1:30 go home work some more getting the house and yard ready for company. Then it’s time for food prep and then party time! I love hostessing making sure everyone is taken care of and that everything is looked after. My mom has always joked that I’m a Martha and my sister is a Mary.

Martha’s are the people like in the bible story who busy themselves looking after people running around doing things, but we rarely stop to listen to those we are serving and to hear about their lives. Mary’s are the people who socialize and soak in every word people say and truly care and wonder what’s going on in someone’s life. Both have a time and a purpose but in this particular bible story it’s the Martha who is reprimanded for not learning from Jesus.

I struggle to be a Mary. My Martha personality keeps me serving others but not listening. Tonight was my wake up call. I was made to no longer be the perfect hostess and to no longer be able to please and entertain my guests. As I stopped and reassessed my evening it occurred to me that life isn’t perfect life isn’t about how clean my house is or how much people have to eat. Life is about relationship. The most important one being my relationship with my Heavenly Father. So this evening after cleaning up I began to think and wonder if I’d truly been listening to God and what he has to say to me.

I’m not perfect and I’m not the most attentive listener but I’m listening now God, I pray you would speak both to me and through me. Allow my life to be an example of you. Keep my out look positive and my attitude joyful.

Psalms 4:8

In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety.

Winter Wonderland

Winter is officially upon us. What a beautiful and wonderful time of year. It opens up so much potential for fun things to do in the snow as well as cuddling up with a blanket and warm cup of hot chocolate. The down side is my schedule and routine have to completely change to adapt to the new weather conditions.

So how do I combat such a change. Well I’ve started by searching for activities I can do at and from home. The joy with biking is it just became part of my routine and I never had to drive somewhere or go somewhere to get my work out in, I never even really thought of it as a workout. Now without that regular everyday work out I need to find something new but my schedule hasn’t opened up enough to allow for time to drive to and from the gym every day so what to do. I have been researching the last few weeks and I think for me I will get into kick boxing this winter. I have a punching bag at home and it’s a great work out not only for your upper body but for your core and can help with lateral movement.

Am I good at kick boxing… no note really but I enjoy it and I think that is key. If you’re not enjoying your work out you won’t stick to it. If you’re not enjoying your diet it will become a fad and you’ll go back to your old habits after a while. I continue to look for healthy things I can implement into my day to day life that I enjoy and make life easier.

Emotionally the cold weather typically means a drop in mood because we aren’t getting the same vitamin D intake so what am I going to do I’m going to get outside more. no I don’t love the cold, but I love my dog and I love walking her. Spending time with her inside or outside makes me happy and the extra vitamin D should help keep my emotions light and happy this winter. I have also found little ways to reduce stress which is also improving my mood. Rather than stress about work I leave my office problems at the office. Rather than worry about how busy I am with home life and the things I have to get done I pick away at them a little at a time. If I have lots of time then I can really get a lot done because some of the work has been done as I am able to get to it.

Still the biggest one for me though is my spiritual well being. The greatest part about this is it doesn’t fluctuate based on the weather or how physically fit I am . It can be influenced by emotion but usually it’s a positive influence not negative. Having a great relationship with God and constantly being educated at church has been a huge help in my day to day life. It makes the physical and emotional stuff line up that much easier. My goal now as we head into the winter months is to pursue relationships with people that can be supported by a strong spiritual influence.

My new goal create an active health conscious emotionally uplifting group/environment with like minded Christians where we can meet and grow together and develop friendships that will support each other through every part of our lives.

If you’re interested in something like this or know someone who is let me know and lets connect and continue to grow together.


Matthew 18:19-20

19 “Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven.20 For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”

Seeing Results

Finally starting to see results. the time and effort are paying off. My body hurts, I’m exhausted by the end of the day and I’m busy, but my soul is full my relationships are strong and my over all physical activity.

My goal at the beginning of all of this was just to have a way to vent and track my own personal success from a fitness perspective. But this has become so much more than that. It’s a way to open up to people, to relate to people and to build on some personal goals.

From a fitness perspective I have exceeded even my own expectation. I look and photos and see a change, I’ve accomplished so much and I am getting better and better at everything I strive towards every time I do them. I have gotten my bike to and from work down from 28 minutes when I started to 22  minutes. I am starting to see improvement in my shooting when playing basketball and I can feel myself getting stronger every time I try something new. I look forward to maintaining and improving as we move into the winters months so that I am able to accomplish even more and reach higher goals next year. My goal is to get onto a women’s basketball team and although that did not happen this year I have been put on a sub list and am already subbing. This summer I also want to attempt my first half marathon and my first Triathlon.

From an emotional perspective we are still working through some things but I am truly learning my body. I know what to avoid for food and that my body needs a certain amount of sleep. I am keeping myself in check and making sure I am aware of my moods. This has allowed me to grow deeper in a lot of my relationships and make me a calmer person with less anxiety and stress.

Lastly my spiritual journey. This has been an amazing one. Am I where I want and need to be no but I am striving and learning every day. I am being patient and listening for Gods word and advice. I find myself going to him and praying just naturally now instead of fretting and worrying. The sermons at my church pack so much more of a punch and have so much more meaning. I’m learning weekly if not daily. I feel more reliant and calm. I also know that with this will come more attacks as well but I am determined to strive and push through them to continue my growth and walk with God. I am done being a luke warm Christian and I will live for him.

Apostles Creed:

I believe in God, the Father almighty, creator of heaven and earth. I believe in Jesus Christ, God’s only Son, our Lord, who was conceived by the Holy Spirit, born of the Virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried; he descended to the dead. On the third day he rose again; he ascended into heaven, he is seated at the right hand of the Father, and he will come to judge the living and the dead.

I believe in the Holy Spirit, the holy catholic Church, the communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of the body, and the life everlasting.